There have been a couple of things come up in the past couple of weeks that I thought I'd share.
Tonight I read the first month's worth of my entries to this journal. Wow, what a difference. Tomorrow, 11/18/06, makes 9 months since A&K moved in. Their hearts & ours have changed so drastically. It's amazing to see how quickly stability & order & boundaries can make a difference in a child's life. We still have miles to go, but things have changed so much. It's interesting to see how much of that old stuff still comes out from time to time, though.
A couple of weeks back, I was on the way to the grocery store. Andrew kept calling me back into his bedroom (I go after the kids are in bed for the night). I was getting frustrated b/c I really needed to go buy the groceries & he wouldn't let me go. He finally admitted that he was afraid something would happen to me while I was gone. He wanted to get up & go with me to make sure I was safe. Had the next day not been a school day, I would've let him, but it wasn't a good time. I assured him I would be careful & he finally let me leave. I gave him a "kissing hand" before I left though---filling his palm with kisses & having him close his hand on them so they wouldn't "slip out". I told him if he needed more kisses while I was gone, he could get a kiss from his hand. That seemed to satisfy him. :)
Tonight I had to run to the store again. After getting everyone tucked in & heading for the doorway, he called me into his room. When I reached the doorway, I heard him sniffling & he said "Will you drive safely?" (Yes, I will.) "What if you crash?" (I'll be ok, honey. I've been to Brookshire's a thousand times, so I know the way well. I'll make sure & drive the safest way I know, ok?) "But what if something happens to you?" (Then God will take care of me.) "But what if He doesn't save you?" (Then I will go to Heaven.) "But I don't want you to go to Heaven." (Then you should pray for God to protect me while I drive. Can you do that?) "Yes...I'll do that. I love you! Be careful!"
Boy do I feel like a heel leaving the house after those conversations.
Another sweet one with Andrew---
A couple weeks ago when I got strep throat, I went in to tell the kids goodnight, but reminded them that I couldn't kiss them b/c I was sick. Andrew really lives for our bedtime snuggles, so that disappointed him. I told him he could give me a short, quick hug but that I'd have to sort of turn sideways & let him hug me (so I wouldn't be breathing on him). As I started to stand up from his bed to leave, he grabbed onto me & said "Wait! I'm going to pray for you to get better." I sat back down & he put his hands on top of mine, closed his eyes & prayed silently for a minute. When he was done, he turned me loose & said "Ok, it's done." I thought it was sweet that he'd even offer to pray for me, but really cute that he wanted to put his hands on me while he was doing it.
enjoy your weekend:)
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Awww.. I think you will always have to Reassure Andrew that you will come back.. It has to be so hard for him.. My daughter who has never lost a parent acts the same way anytime that I go.. What you should do when you get back is to go in his room and just lightly tell him you are home..somehow he would hear it...
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