The Real Me

This week has been difficult, but once again, God has used music to touch my soul & toss me back into the right perspective on things.  I have listened to this song a thousand times, but now I'm hearing it with different ears.  Ya know?  Sometimes you see things through different eyes or hear through different ears & it takes on a whole new meaning.  That's the case here.  God has shed light on this song by Natalie Grant and has refreshed my perspective & patience with Andrew. 

 

Real Me

Foolish heart, looks like we're here again.
Same old game of plastic smile,
Don't let anybody in.
Hiding my heartache,
Will this glass house break?
How much will it take before I'm empty?
Do I let it show?
Does anybody know?

CHORUS:
But You see the real me.
Hiding in my skin, broken from within.
Unveil me completely.
I'm loosening my grasp,
There's no need to mask my frailty
Cause You see the real me.

Painted on, life is behind a mask,
Self-inflicted circus clown.
I'm tired of the song and dance,
Living a charade, always on parade.
What a mess I've made of my existence.
But You love me even now
And still I see somehow...

CHORUS

Wonderful, beautiful is what you see
When You look at me.
You're turning the tattered fabric of my life
Into a perfect tapestry.
Oh, I just wanna be me,
I wanna be me.

CHORUS

and you love me just as i am.
wonderful, beautiful is what you see
when you look at me.

 

 

It's such a sweet song about Natalie's struggle with an eating disorder & her trying to hide it from everyone for much of her life, but knowing that God sees the "real me" and how she couldn't hide from Him.  I hope that Andrew understands that God sees through his facade of maturity and strength and power to the scared, shaking, frightened little boy within....and He loves Him so immensely---just as he is!

 

I love you, baby boy.

 

(By the way, Natalie Grant gave birth to her first--and second!--babies this past week.  She has twin girls!)